songs untethered

All these songs have musical accompaniment. One day they will appear together. For now, they are untethered.

all the leaving that I’ve done
i didn’t go to hurt no one
it’s just my home, it had moved on
and I had to find it someplace else

when I’m leaving people say I’m coming back
when I’m coming home, people say I’m leaving them

you had the tattoo of the rabbit
that we had seen outside
all these symbols, i don’t believe ’em
there just something i live my life by

when I’m leaving people say I’m coming back
when I’m coming home, people say I’m leaving them

i found the rabbit by the highway
as dead as a stone
i suppose he died the good way
trying to find his way back home


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why do we only look up when a star rises or falls?
all that space in-between, yeah life is that what it’s called?
i’m sorry my brother i barely wrote and now you tell me she’s gone
I wanna point you towards some light how i wish i was home

when so much of life has left you alone, left you alone
i’ll come by and help carry what’s left, lighten up your load
i’ll come by and carry what’s left, lighten up that load

they say we can’t learn anything in this life without loss, without loss
in that case my brother you’ve learned a lot, you’ve learned a lot
don’t it still just threaten to take it all when nothing’s all you got?
i hope one day you can look back and i’ll be a lamp lighting your road

when so much of life has left you behind, left you behind
i’ll come by and carry what’s left, lighten up that load
i’ll be a lamp in your life and help lighten up that road
i’ll come by and we’ll carry what’s left, lighten up that load


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hello I am the hangman 
hangman to the life I chose
executioner of a future i proposed
I wanted rivers I wanted rain I wanted the rose
but all my roads were washed away by my wishes for rain

now from the desert now from the plains
I call out the for my friend the hangman
and there goes another part of this man
if you can’t follow through leave it behind

I took the rope and saw a crown
i knew swinging was my only way down
It was so hard living up to my plans
reaching out so far I could hardly stand

hello I am the hangman 
hangman to the life I chose


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Im calling to say I’m doing fine ma
despite this funny pain deep in my heart
I’ve seen your eyes i know you have it too
all i dream about is saying I’m fine to you

it’s hard to describe 
an island in the sea
like the one where i was born
but no bridges no boats for me
to unvisit my mind

an oasis to a watery desert
a desert no one can ever sail across
all the boats are full of holes the ropes are untied
I’m writing to say everything’s alright 

it’s hard to describe 
like a sinking ship
with no one onboard
to drop me a line
to unvisit my mind

the trouble lies in the rhythm of my heart
you know too well, you gave me this heart
when these old scars begin to itch
a simple scratch they all become unstitched

it’s hard to describe
like falling in a well
all i have is my hands
to hold my head 
and it invades my mind


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excuse my stolen melody
it suits these weary memories
I remember an old friend dying
you, her brother, were only 13

i got word from my mother
she was found face down in the water
it took them an hour just to find her
the current had ripped her body under 

her little brother was my best friend
their father had long since left them
their mother a prisoner of substance
she was the only one left for him

they were climbing by the river
she missed a step behind him
he watched her head hit a boulder
and her body get taken under

excuse my stolen melodies
but suits these weary memories
of an old friend dying
you, her brother, were only 13

old friend I pray you never ask me
“why didn’t you write to me?”
your mother died, and you were in penitentiary
old friend I pray you never ask me


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this morning i had a day
wash up and swallow me
it arrived so innocently
days arrive so innocently
that was the day a puddle became the sea
it’s a pity no one was around to see


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i want to write you a song so strange and soft
that you’ll never need another one
first it will follow you out then up when you take off
and you’ll have something to hum when the world plays rough

further down the line you’ll grow tired of this kind of thing
i better step it up, i guess you never liked the way i sing
you just her a song more strange
than soft

i want to write you a song so strange and soft
that you’ll never need another one


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